Wonderful

I've been feeling it coming on at least since the fire show. I've been refusing to let it win, but soon, I can feel that it will kick my ass. Back to the depression and angst. I hate it but its so hard to keep it off.
At least it's apt, tomorrow is Yom Kippur, and so I will be more than ready to sit around feeling emo and guilty. On that note: I forgot to ask forgiveness of all the people I've wronged this year. Fuck, there are a lot of you. Look, I'm a bitch and I'm sorry, ok? Maybe I'll send a massive spam email to everyone I know to apologize. The problem is, if I am completely honest about things like resenting the hell out of Dakota for already being better than me, or whatever, I think the apology will just start drama. I'm usually pretty up front about things that bother me, and I really try to go out of my way to be as nice as possible as much as possible, but my nature is to be a bitch. And I'm too tired and angsty for drama right now. I
ts an interesting concept having to apologize to people you've wronged, but ir seems like it would mostly create more problems. If you have to apologize to someone you work with for hating them and gossiping about them, then they'll know that you hate them. Or can you just say "hi. it's erev yom kippur, I'd like to apologize for anything I may have done to you this year." I'm not even clear on what exactly you have to apologize for, if thinking is enough or negative comments, or does it have to be actions. Not that it matters to me, I still need to apologize for a shit ton of stuff regardless of what the criteria are.
Speaking of things I'm sorry about, I nearly killed Stacey today. I feel really awful about it. I dropped her on her head balancing and she hurt her neck.... I really hope she's ok.
Alright, I'll stop spewing my emo-ness all over the internet now. I'm going to eat dinner and watch House for a while then go to work.